Void?

Do you ever feel like there's something missing? As though nothing is wrong in your life, but there's simply something lacking? Confession: I went to see a romantic-comedy tonight, and it made me really lonely. Even though I'm young, I still fear that I'll be alone forever. That I'll wake up at age 35 and realize that it's never going to happen for me. That I'll find myself alone at age 70 wondering where my life went. I don't even want a movie romance, I want a real relationship. I want what my parents have, that secure, loving partnership. I see my aunts and uncles, the married couples at my church, and wish I could find something like that. I'm not aching for magical romance, I'm searching for someone to match me like those couples match each other.

There is no such thing as a perfect relationship. I know this. All relationships have problems, conflicts, differences... but they're strong enough to survive anything that comes their way because both partners are determined to make it work and convinced that the effort is worth it.

Is the right guy out there? Is there someone out there who I will like who will actually like me back? Did God make someone to walk alongside me? I have no idea. But I hope. And I wait. And if you're out there... I'm searching and waiting for you.

Wow, that's sappy. I've got to stop before I go into emotional overhaul and start acting like a feminine girl. We all know THAT can't happen.